Category: desire

  • My poetry is dead

    To those who pick themselves up in silence, un-noticed, lost, but won’t give up

    I know how it is

    To go through the daily ritual. Unwilling to yeild, but exhausted and tired

      Some of us with partners that are cold and frigid, not giving empathy, affection or love shut themselves off from you, then you shut yourself off
     
    Others, who are single, but with the same fire in your heart, to give it all, but nobody to accept your power and love, you shut yourself off

    You feel deeper, down to the working foundation of others, to touch, express your heat.

    Open nerves, always giving, just wanting that touch, the lips, the pressure, to taste, to experience.



    ©️ Jacob Pickard. 2025.

    1st published on Substack

       

  • Curse

    Curse

    Energy
    Given freely
    Is as breathing
    For me
    Understanding
    Until now, ive had so much of it
    But, frankly
    I
    Am
    Utterly
    Exhausted
    I
    Speak Truth
    I
    Endless hope
    I
    Set
    Boundries
    I
    Don’t give up
    ……Why do I feel guilty?


    Truth
    I
    am
    prey
    Human predators smell empathy
    As
    Sharks smell blood in the water
    Allowing myself to be used
    without equal reciprocity
    Used
    Endless cycle(s) of neglect
    Affection to weapon
    Sex to Weapon
    Shrunk as weapon
    Tool of endless emotional grounding
    Control
    Power
    Stability
    Comfort


    I
    Am
    Tired
    …….So very very tired
    And I’m afraid
    I
    Have
    Changed
    I
    Am
    Broken
    Victim
    Survivor
    Pariah

    Empathy is a curse


    ©️ Jacob Pickard. 2026.

  • A Night Like This – The Cure

    I’m coming to find you if it takes me all night
    A witch hunt for another girl
    For always and ever is always for you


    Say goodbye on a night like this
    If it’s the last thing we ever do
    You never looked as lost as this
    Sometimes it doesn’t even look like you
    It goes dark
    It goes darker still
    Please stay
    But I watch you like I’m made of stone
    As you walk away

    I’m coming to find you if it takes me all night
    A witch hunt for another girl
    For always and ever is always for you
    Your trust
    The most gorgeously stupid thing I ever cut in the world

    Say hello on a day like today
    Say it everytime you move
    The way that you look at me now
    Makes me wish I was you
    It goes deep
    It goes deeper still
    This touch
    And the smile and the shake of your head

    I’m coming to find you if it takes me all night
    Can’t stand here like this anymore
    For always and ever is always for you
    I want it to be perfect
    Like before
    I want to change it all

    I want to change