Ecoheretic

Curse

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Jake

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Energy
Given freely
Is as breathing
For me
Understanding
Until now, ive had so much of it
But, frankly
I
Am
Utterly
Exhausted
I
Speak Truth
I
Endless hope
I
Set
Boundries
I
Don’t give up
……Why do I feel guilty?

Truth
I
am
prey
Human predators smell empathy
As
Sharks smell blood in the water
Allowing myself to be used
without equal reciprocity
Used
Endless cycle(s) of neglect
Affection to weapon
Sex to Weapon
Shrunk as weapon
Tool of endless emotional grounding
Control
Power
Stability
Comfort

I
Am
Tired
…….So very very tired
And I’m afraid
I
Have
Changed
I
Am
Broken
Victim
Survivor
Pariah

Empathy is a curse

©️ Jacob Pickard. 2026.

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4 responses to “Curse”

  1. justrojie Avatar
    justrojie

    empathy is also something that brings people together. it’s what makes us human.

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  2. Jake Avatar
    Jake

    Some of us who are by nature more empathetic than others start being conditioned when they are young to give without reciprocity or an exchange of energy. We are expected to be present, strong, undramatic, not to expect much, even attention, to be a sponge for all those around them. Especially family.
    Then we leave, go out in the real world without emotional armor, and we continue to absorb, to be present, without reciprocity, to be used without the simple love, affection, consideration of our feelings because the assumption is we will always be there to ground them.
    Just like growing up the pattern repeats, your role is set.

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  3. Jake Avatar
    Jake

    It’s true I never ask for much. I want to be appreciated, loved, touched, sex, kissed, held, because presents or things have never meant much to me.
    If I ever meet a woman again, who says their love language is “buying” gifts, that is a red flag, they are unwilling to do the real work of building a relationship.

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  4. Jake Avatar
    Jake

    The other thing those who are more narcissistic know they can manipulate you, and they do, without you even knowing it.
    Im no angel, but they understand that when you lash out and let your impulsive behavior win; they have even more control over you. The act of withholding affection & love is the tool they use.
    When you are in emotional turmoil and at your lowest that’s when the predators smell that you no longer care about yourself.
    I learned the hard way ~3 years ago what happens.
    It broke me
    Broke the illusion, slowly revealed the manipulation, I started seeing the details and the patterns.
    Im a survivor in the early steps of reclaiming “me” and life to find that happiness and fulfillment i have never had.

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