Category: mythology

  • Living Dream

    This is a outline of a very vivid dream which had a long impact on my psyche, so long in fact it was months before I wrote it down and certain advents of this dream still have not fully faded away, with a few event’s i left out because they cause reaction from me whenever I delve to deep. It’s a little confusing, as i have been contemplating it for years:

    A Tsunami Wave destroys a giant “arceotype/city” floating in the ocean populated with cloned humans from the mainland.

    All the dead bodies together touching trapped in a purgatory. Specifically a French women and her family as the focus, but with americans, asains, etc….) They all have the same dream ,etc… and can not get out of it.

    People who die and face death again are freed.

    People who will not face death again will not accept it and keep on being trapped in the dream.

    People whom figure out the situation are even more screwed because they will not accept anything as real, be it death or the dream. Although they soon are able to figure out differences between reality and non-reality situations. These people are helped by aliens/angels, etc… as guides to try to  help them out of this living dead dream.

    The French women’s husband (with his original soul) is brought back to a clone body (he was birthed human originally) to their house on the shore high atop a cliff. The husband who could not accept his death was alive as the clone (for real) this time, but the caveat of the living dream was still his fate.

      His wife and children were still dead, other dead people’s souls not in clone bodies however can now come back and haunt the man who came alive again as wraiths and his living life is now part of a purgatory life, living dream, set in reality because of the clone body.

    Is understanding your being’s placement in the architecture of the universe and interactions amoung systems a curse? Or you can escape death, but how high the price?


    ©️ Jacob Pickard. 2025. Written ~ 2004 before the Indian Ocean Tsunami.

  • In Blur – deafheaven

    “Forgive the trembling love,
    I’m weak and acting bold
    And alone”


    The rhythmic and melodic layering in this song is amazing. The atmosphere it radiates chills you.


    In blur, farther
    Glanced over stirred
    Imagined you laughing
    Muddied feet dancing
    What is this aching prism?
    This prison wincing
    Receiving sudden swaths of dogma

    Wandering over royal yonder
    Wandering over flooded ground again

    (What does daylight look like?)
    What does daylight look like in this chaos of cold?
    (What does daylight look like?)
    Solitude and falling into respites now

    In blur, hovered
    Accepted devotion
    Unearthed, bleeding ark of creation

    Wandering over royal yonder
    Wandering over flooded ground again

    (What does daylight look like?)
    What does daylight look like in this chaos of cold?
    (What does daylight look like?)
    Solitude and falling into respites now
    (What does daylight look like?)
    What does daylight look like in this chaos of cold?
    (What does daylight look like?)
    Solitude and falling into respites now

    Forgive the trembling love,
    I’m weak and acting bold
    And alone

    Written by: Christopher Johnson, Kerry Dylan Mccoy, George Lesage Clarke, Daniel Tracy, Shiv Mehra. Album: Infinite Granite. Released: 2021

  • Pariah in the company of Phantoms


    I am Pariah

    A life devoid of touch, love, passion, a pillar of rough-hewn granite, to make other’s lives more comfortable so they don’t have to feel guilt. A mirrored avatar to reflect what they want to see; taking responsibility for the cowardly acts of their Phantoms.
    Selfish Ideological Narcissists, making victims that exist in the interstitial spaces, Acceptable losses in the war.
    A living taboo, stigmatized, no one wants to touch this flesh, it is taboo made real.
    Aged masculinty shattered into dull edges, ego ripped out, longtime ideological identity destroyed; the devouring mother’s hunger satiated.

    I no longer want to try to identify with anyone, as anyone, or with any group. All are phantoms.
    The gulf is now infinite. Not your spaces in-between, because nothing exists on either side.
    Playing my part in the background, while the Phantoms roleplay; it’s the curse of total detached awareness & empathy. Pain hidden in the shadows, invisible to all.

    Pariah is my rightful place, I am the sacrificial king: I will let this demon eat my soul.

    ……and I will REVEL in the consumption

    One with the Pariah that haunts the
    interstitial spaces

    the Pariah that whispers to the
    phantoms in your nightmares



    ©️ Jacob A. Pickard. 2025. Originally 

    published on SubStack.

  • This Mortal Burden Chapter 1 – Dark Future Sci-Fi

    This Mortal Burden Chapter 1 – Dark Future Sci-Fi

    The Colossus – Fransico Goya

                 This Mortal Burden Chapter 1

    This is a long read. Just a quarter of this novel I wrote awhile ago. I cringe at some of it, because I was younger, with a great lack of wisdom. Although I think I caught detail of the action pretty well.

       

  • Lifetime – Dark Future Philosophical Sci-Fi

                                LIFETIME

  • Absolute Favorite Song, Group, or type of music?

    Okay people out there in WP land this is a difficult question and one that is very hard to answer.

       It gets worse if you have diverse musical genres you enjoy and listening moods that you mold the music around your feelings or state at the time.

            Personaly; punk, hardcore, metal, & rock have been my main as well as many of the sub-genera’s of them all. Dark wave, industrial, blues, Ambient, folk, Folk Nordic metal, old country and bluegrass. I also like classical, early rap, more jazzy hip-hop/trip-hop or political (here’s looking at you Public Enemy) rap. I’ve never much been into pop, but PJ Harvey, Lady Gaga & Billie Elish i have a soft spot for because of their voice, they speak their truth’s, and the dark feminine nature they exude (Check out Chelsea Wolf). Im not a swifty but I like that she speaks out her politics and stands her ground.

    So I im going to try to answer one of the questions I asked above and of course it is not 100%, but my favorite band(s) of all time goes to CLUTCH. Every song is a story, the lyrics build it into a saga, and the music a foundation for a mythology.

    I first saw them in my brother’s basement in Madison, WI. Everytime I see them it’s like meeting up with an old friend.

    Released 1991

    Released 1995

    Released 1998

    Released 2013

    Released 2022

    Clutch Clutch Album Cover 1995

        Honorable mentions go to Carcass, The Dead Boys, Mastodon, Gwar, Godflesh, Boy Sets Fire, Paradise Lost, Subhumans, Grinch (west coast progressive hardcore), Bahaus, Circle Jerks, Black Flag, Amy Winehouse, The Cure, Beethoven, Curve, Public Enemy, Anthrax, Conflict, Brian Eno, Front Line Assembly, Skinny Puppy, Chelsea Wolf, Suldusk, Swallow the Sun, Red Fang, Melvins, My Bloody Valentine, Coil, etc…etc…etc…etc.

    Released 1986

    Released 1992

    Released 2019

    Released 2006

    Released 1991

    Released 1977


    So what do ally’all like? Can you answer this question?